Day by Day (03/15/2005)

a time like this makes me wish i had a stronger self
a harder core to match my exoskeleton
a calloused heart instead of a sponge-y one where you can squeeze
a time like this makes me wish i had never been reflective
of the text i read, the knowledge i attain, the voices i hear in my head
when i become inspired, i wish i hadn't learned to to think on my own
a time like this makes me wish i had a lot of money
a time like this makes me wish my parents did not pass onto me the burden
of being a conscious citizen
a loving daughter
and a caring friend
an intelligent young woman
a time like this makes me wish i can take care of myself completely
needing nobody to support and rescue me at
at a time when i feel like i'm sacrificing my happiness to my duty
as a daughter
to my loving parents
a time like this makes me wish i can decide on my own
without considering the consequences of my actions
good or bad
as long as i made it on my own
a time like this, at a time like this in particular, do i wish i was comfortable
to being alone
to being by completely by myself on an island in the middle of the ocean
a time like this do i wish i was completely selfish
but i am selfless....